How often do we as women fall into the trap of not feeling worthy of happiness and love? How many times have we stepped into a new relationship of whatever kind, feeling like there is no way it could ever work out because we are too far gone to be seen as anything that even resembles the person that could be loved for who we really are?
WALLS... Can we just take a second to appreciate the walls that we have built around our hearts and minds to keep ourselves trapped in this bondage of self loathing. We build those walls out of concrete, brick and steel then reinforce them with words like; unlovable, fat, lacking, failure, ugly, stupid.... and if that's not enough let's add into the mixture all of the brokenness from whatever deck of cards life has dealt us.
I can totally relate to feeling like I didn't deserve to be happy. I'm so glad that I don't have to feel that way about myself anymore. When it comes to happiness... none of us really deserve to be any happier than the next gal. I'm not going to give you any psycho-babble about how everyone has their own level of happiness and that we should all be trying to evolve and move into the next level.
The conclusion that I've come to is that I get to choose happiness for myself. I still get caught in the net and struggle when I start to think that because of the things I've done and said that I absolutely do not deserve to be happy. If I wallow in the pit of self doubt I will never live the beautifully adventurous life I am meant to live.
Life is beautiful and I deserve every drop of it!
Until Next Time,
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